It’s nice to be back home after my stint in Brussels. I have a week or so before the business of university kicks in and my next placement doesn’t start until the middle of October. In the meantime though I have to visit four churches will be potential probationary churches. The first was today.
It’s a church I know fairly well, as much by reputation as well as having been several times. It’s got a great age profile, is one of the friendliest I’ve ever been in, is very active in the community (and beyond), has a passionate and committed ministry team and appeals to my geek side in so many ways. But is it the place where I could spend 15 months of my training?
There is, as I’ve said, much to commend it and I’m not jumping the gun and ruling anywhere out until I have been round them all, but I have to say, at the moment, there isn’t that sense of ‘tug’ towards the place. Maybe I need to experience all of them before I’ll know for definite, but at the moment it’s still a maybe.
As I’ve gone through this whole selection and training process, one of the biggest changes in me is how I listen to and hear God. I wouldn’t say I ever get clear and unambiguous instructions, but I’m getting a much better sense of when something is the right path and when it’s not. One of the ‘warnings’ we were given at conference was not to go with what our gut reaction said was the good choice. Yes, sometimes our positive gut reaction is because it’s what makes us feel good. But sometimes it’s deeper than that. Sometimes it’s being able to touch our deepest spiritual senses and know that God is with us, supporting and guiding.